As I lay there with tears streaming down my face and an overwhelming sense of feeling alone I missed my home. Not any home here on earth but a home beyond this life that I don’t remember but know in my heart exists. A place that makes so much more sense than this and feels like anything beyond what I can ever put into words. I have had many moments of missing this home over my lifetime and I know I’ll return one day. Who knows, maybe when I get there I’ll miss being here… but then I think umm probably not. Haha. For now though I have a place and a purpose here in this life, and so it is.
But the true realisation I had in this experience was not about a place beyond this life, my soul's true home, but in what my tears were really telling me. My feeling of being alone was not a truth for I am never truly alone. I have myself, I have my family, I have my friends, and I have my angels, and I have a whole team of spiritual helpers who will always be there; so why the tears and why the loneliness?
What my tears were really telling me is that I am not meeting my own needs right now. My tears were a cry for help from my soul to me: to listen, to take notice, to love and to care.
I’ve been putting so much of my time and energy into what I do that I’ve forgotten to balance it with who I am. With my knowledge and wisdom in helping others you think I’d know better but at the end of the day I’m just a person and it’s ok. I wouldn't normally share such an intimate experience but I felt strongly guided that this message needs to be heard so I share this with you. If you are feeling lonely, unloved, neglected, or anything along those lines and you find tears running down your face don’t get caught up in the negative and self-limiting beliefs that try to tell you that you’re not good enough or worthy enough. Your tears are just your soul calling you to stop and take notice. Your soul is not yearning for anyone or anything else, other than YOU.
Allow your tears and your feelings to guide you to the change your soul needs. If you are feeling lonely you are more than likely disconnected from your higher self. If you are feeling unloved you are more than likely not loving yourself enough. If you are feeling neglected you are more than likely not taking enough care of your own needs. When you give to yourself and fill these holes, you heal - in so many more ways than one.